Several days ago I left copies of my book, "Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction," at a store that I have always gone too. The very next day I was at Wal-Mart and I saw two ladies who recognized me and told me they had purchased the book. I was very pleased to hear how they explained the book..."we have already fallen in love with it..." These words were very pleasing and encouraging.
The entire reason for the book is to bring about the encouragement and positive direction that we need in our lives. It also introduces readers to our Lord, Jesus Christ and how I always seemed to abandon Him to satisfy my negative behaviors so I could accept the false images of life. My book reminds readers how important God's guidance, strength, and Hands are in our lives. I include how He saved me and led me away from such a destructive path I was relying on. Once I stopped resisting Him and opened my heart to Him the change became obvious. I was very pleased when I found out He didn't hold it against me and forgave me for abandoning Him.
The most encouraging thing I want readers to get from the book is the most important ingredient given to us by God...the power of forgiveness. We can accept His grace and powers and open our lives to the path of forgiveness. We can forgive those who have done us wrong, encourage others to grasp onto that forgiveness, and feel the power of forgiveness as others forgive us for our behaviors and addictions.
E. Splater
Words from my Mouth
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Hometown Newspaper
Today I met with a writer from The Randolph Times. Although I was born in Fremont, Randolph was the town where my roots began. I grew up there and I graduated in 1995 from Randolph. It is a very small town of 987 people. I only had twenty-five other people in my grade.
I could sense her deep Christian beliefs and her profound knowledge about God and His Words. We discussed The Book of James and The Book of Job heavily. It were those two books that I always held dear to me and relied on so heavily in my past. During our conversation it reminded me why I kept both of those books very close to my heart. It seems we are always willing to praise and thank God when things go our way in our lives. At the drop of a dime we become very upset and angry with God if we don't get our way or if the trials and temptations of life are overpowering our entire existence.
I was asked what I wanted from this book. What I truly want is people to realize there are other paths and journeys in our life that are more positive than the current path of addiction or negativity. I really want people to grasp onto their Higher Power or God and allow their (His) presence to shine. I want people to grasp onto their original roots and realize in life that we must accept our past but move beyond it.
I was asked what I have learned. In my life I have learned that it doesn't matter what failures a person has endured as long as you have learned from them. Failures aren't embarrassing but lessons we can learn from. When you grasp onto the power of forgiveness you won't corrupt the rest of your life with the wrongs you may have endured. You won't constantly relapse to the past or allow your entire existence to be consumed with returning to the "what it's" of life.
The interview and conversation with the writer from The Randolph Times was very good. I enjoyed the company of this writer and she was very polite and respectable. I valued her attention and detail to the interview.
I could sense her deep Christian beliefs and her profound knowledge about God and His Words. We discussed The Book of James and The Book of Job heavily. It were those two books that I always held dear to me and relied on so heavily in my past. During our conversation it reminded me why I kept both of those books very close to my heart. It seems we are always willing to praise and thank God when things go our way in our lives. At the drop of a dime we become very upset and angry with God if we don't get our way or if the trials and temptations of life are overpowering our entire existence.
I was asked what I wanted from this book. What I truly want is people to realize there are other paths and journeys in our life that are more positive than the current path of addiction or negativity. I really want people to grasp onto their Higher Power or God and allow their (His) presence to shine. I want people to grasp onto their original roots and realize in life that we must accept our past but move beyond it.
I was asked what I have learned. In my life I have learned that it doesn't matter what failures a person has endured as long as you have learned from them. Failures aren't embarrassing but lessons we can learn from. When you grasp onto the power of forgiveness you won't corrupt the rest of your life with the wrongs you may have endured. You won't constantly relapse to the past or allow your entire existence to be consumed with returning to the "what it's" of life.
At the end of the interview I asked her if there would be a story written in The Randolph Times and she insisted there would be. I was very fortunate and happy when she purchased a copy of my book. Her remarks and statements about the cover of the book were very pleasing. They were remarks which reassured me that what other people have said about the cover are true and even very accurate.
The cover repeatedly receives the needed attention and jaw opening responses that it should receive. I am grateful at the responses the cover has received and very grateful at the support "Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction" has received so far.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Eden...
There are many good things about life. We continue to grow, we learn from our mistakes, and we experience new things on a daily basis. A good friend of mine, who I have known for quite some time, reminds me of all those things every day. She doesn't do it on purpose but during our many conversations the aging of times is discussed.
The area where Eden, my house, is located is still a living testament to her. She has a daughter who lives right up the street from Eden. This daughter actually purchased the home that me and my ex were considering buying after Eden's fire happened.
My friend has told me how Eden has started to see tragedy and neglect again. The new owners have not displayed the pride and joy given to Eden that I made sure she received. Eden is starting to deteriorate once again and the beauty that once shined from all of my hard work is becoming near nonexistant. It is becoming a thing of the past.
When I hear about Eden, when I listen to the disrespect she receives, and I am told about her beauty not shining any longer; it reminds me of the ages of time. With time many things happen. These things can be negative or positive. It saddens me to hear about the negative things of Eden but it also forces me to realize that Eden is in my past for many reasons.
In December of 2011 it will be four years that I walked away from a very negative relationship full of addictions, walked away from Eden, and I walked away from everything else that surrounded Eden-inside and out-for a new and better life.
In these four years I have learned a lot of things. First, I have learned to let go. I realized I had to let Eden go for a more healthy lifestyle and for greater adventures for myself. Eden became part of the addictions that were trampling my very own existence. I still smile at the pictures I have of Eden and I will always cherish the memories I had with Eden and everything that surrounded her. I had to let her be without the worries of what could become of her.
In fact, the only reason I allowed my last relationship to continue consuming me was because of Eden. I didn't want to lose what I worked so hard for. I hung on to Eden for two more years. It doesn't help to hang on to the material things of our relationships. It only makes everything worse. It allows everything to get more negative and out of control.
Secondly, I have learned I couldn't save anything inside of those walls of Eden. I tried with all of my time and energy to do just that. It only consumed more of me and provided more headaches. Just like I couldn't save my last relationship and I couldn't save the other person who was in the relationship with me, I had to come to terms I couldn't save Eden from the catastrophe either.
Third, I spent so much of my time and focus on other people and Eden that I abandoned myself. I didn't even realize I let myself go and I didn't realize I didn't care about myself. In life we must come first. We have to remember that we are the most important person and thing on earth. There isn't another individual and there is no piece of material more important than ourself.
Finally, I can continue witnessing and grasping onto the beauty of everything without Eden. I can cherish the moments with Mother Nature and witness her everlasting love in many different ways than what I accomplished on the property of Eden. There are endless amounts of parks and places where Mother Nature can talk to me and shine without having Eden.
E. Splater
The area where Eden, my house, is located is still a living testament to her. She has a daughter who lives right up the street from Eden. This daughter actually purchased the home that me and my ex were considering buying after Eden's fire happened.
My friend has told me how Eden has started to see tragedy and neglect again. The new owners have not displayed the pride and joy given to Eden that I made sure she received. Eden is starting to deteriorate once again and the beauty that once shined from all of my hard work is becoming near nonexistant. It is becoming a thing of the past.
When I hear about Eden, when I listen to the disrespect she receives, and I am told about her beauty not shining any longer; it reminds me of the ages of time. With time many things happen. These things can be negative or positive. It saddens me to hear about the negative things of Eden but it also forces me to realize that Eden is in my past for many reasons.
In December of 2011 it will be four years that I walked away from a very negative relationship full of addictions, walked away from Eden, and I walked away from everything else that surrounded Eden-inside and out-for a new and better life.
In these four years I have learned a lot of things. First, I have learned to let go. I realized I had to let Eden go for a more healthy lifestyle and for greater adventures for myself. Eden became part of the addictions that were trampling my very own existence. I still smile at the pictures I have of Eden and I will always cherish the memories I had with Eden and everything that surrounded her. I had to let her be without the worries of what could become of her.
In fact, the only reason I allowed my last relationship to continue consuming me was because of Eden. I didn't want to lose what I worked so hard for. I hung on to Eden for two more years. It doesn't help to hang on to the material things of our relationships. It only makes everything worse. It allows everything to get more negative and out of control.
Secondly, I have learned I couldn't save anything inside of those walls of Eden. I tried with all of my time and energy to do just that. It only consumed more of me and provided more headaches. Just like I couldn't save my last relationship and I couldn't save the other person who was in the relationship with me, I had to come to terms I couldn't save Eden from the catastrophe either.
Third, I spent so much of my time and focus on other people and Eden that I abandoned myself. I didn't even realize I let myself go and I didn't realize I didn't care about myself. In life we must come first. We have to remember that we are the most important person and thing on earth. There isn't another individual and there is no piece of material more important than ourself.
Finally, I can continue witnessing and grasping onto the beauty of everything without Eden. I can cherish the moments with Mother Nature and witness her everlasting love in many different ways than what I accomplished on the property of Eden. There are endless amounts of parks and places where Mother Nature can talk to me and shine without having Eden.
E. Splater
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Introduction...
The intention of this book is to tell readers the power that addiction can have from real-life experiences. I want readers to overcome their addictions. I want to assist readers by providing them with my real life experiences during the battling of my addiction to a person while at the same time suffering from his own addictions. If you think you won’t lose everything because of your addiction and the addictions of the person you love, think again.
For eight years I abandoned my own values and morals to justify my relationship to someone. Throughout the years I was growing up I wanted to be a writer. I had that dream of becoming an Author. I wanted to share stories, adventures, and experiences with the world.
Going back in time I never thought I would be writing of something so powerful and about something that took everything away from me but at the same time changed me…addiction.
I want readers to gain a better knowledge of themselves and their addictions. I want to show readers the power of forgiveness and what healing can do to a person. I want to share with readers how these thousands of words and paragraphs will remain a very powerful message to me of what happened throughout my life. I finally awoke and realized this has got to stop. I hope readers will take some of this perspective with them when they close this and realize in their own life, this has got to stop.
We all wish for our dreams. There is nothing better than reaching for the stars and capturing that fairy tale we all envision. At times, we even dream of having the other person’s grass instead of our own.
Throughout Words from My Mouth, I speak a lot of having a fairy tale and trying to keep up with the Jones’s. It was something I imagined. I never thought it would ever come true. I wanted a nice house with nice things inside. I wanted to have nice vehicles. Who doesn't like to get what they want? I have loved water and the cascading waterfalls that sometimes come with them.
It is one of my favorite things in this life that nature provides for us. Most importantly, it is the beauty of nature that I adored. I had it. It was all something I had. Still, I wasn't happy. I was never satisfied. And it wasn't because I wanted more.
Throughout our entire experience I wondered if we weren’t doing everything backwards. It crossed my mind that people normally work most of their lives before they own a beautiful home. Usually people work almost a lifetime before everything they acquire is paid for. That wasn't true for us. We were only 25 years old and already skipping through life with everything.
We had a beautiful 1912 Victorian Home that had all the details of the original Victorian style, inside and out. We had a greenhouse and landscaping business that made us comfortable. We lived in a small and rural town that was peaceful and quiet with plenty of land to call our own. We were respected individuals in our community that made a difference and we could be ourselves.
We could be an openly gay couple in a village of 100 people. We educated people about the different orientations out there in America and away from their everyday lives and they elected us as their leaders. We even had the blessing of raising a two year old for nine months. It was all before I hit 29 years of age.
It was important that I learned, money didn't buy happiness and only caused an addiction to get worse. I saw how material things would never bring peace and wouldn't ease an addiction. I experienced fighting an addiction because I thought it would make us last. I only learned that addiction is so much stronger than anything else in the entire world until you recognize it and do something about it. After eight years, I realized, you must take that first step…
Words from my Mouth cannot capture that which truly cannot be captured. We cannot bundle a myriad of emotions in some pages and paragraphs. Throughout this I allowed the emotions to flow and the band aids to fall off. It was a time in my life that I didn't care if the wounds resurfaced. The wounds had to resurface to get the rawest of truth from my life.
It is my intent and sole desire to provide readers with my experiences that I have endured early on in my life. In no way will Words from my Mouth fill in for every feeling, opinion, or reveal the roots to every person’s problems. It won’t solve addiction for my readers, but it is filled with life experiences with empowering words to encourage a person to get rid of their addiction. Even today I still have a lot to learn from my past. I will have more learning to achieve and trials to overcome until the day that Jesus is revealed to me and I see Him as He is. (1John 2:3).Brian E. Splater, Copyright Twenty-Eleven, PublishAmerica
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Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Tidbits of "Words from my Mouth"
There are eight main reasons why I wanted "Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction" to become published.
First and foremost is to identify what our addictions consist of and how we can start down the road of defeating them. We can make those addictions become a silent memory if we work hard to achieve a life in sobriety.
Second we must accept our past and realize it will always be there. It is our makeup of today but we don't have to let it define us. We don't have to allow our past to jeopardize our future.
Third, our Higher Power must be utilized. For some people that Higher Power is someone or even something. In treatment and sobriety, many people have come to the realization for the first time that there is someone or something that is in charge. This is OK. Jesus Christ, our Heavinly Father, is my Higher Power. I have absolutely no second guesses on that. The differences in peoples Higher Power will provide substance. The Higher Power will provide you with the guidance, strength, and hands when you need them the most.
Fourth is we MUST love ourselves first. At times our addictions have defined us. There are times we may have pushed our very deep personal values and morals to the side to satisfy our addictions. I know I have pushed my own morals and values off of the cliff's edge to satisfy my relationships. There is no other human being alive that is as important than you. You must become the center of your world. You must love and care for yourself first and foremost.
Fifth, the demons we have held deep within us will continue to root even deeper if we don't recognize those demons. It is our time to destroy them. Once we recognize those burning demons we will then be allowed to make our lives better from them. Do you allow your emotions to control the way you act? Do you resist God or your Higher Power's helping hands? Do you allow stress to eat you alive? If you lost everything in the past do you continually focus on what is fair instead of what is needed?
Sixth, our feelings can be fickle and misguide us. Like our negative behaviors and addictions, our own, personal feelings and emotions can destroy us from the inside out. There are times our feelings will try and overpower our direction in life and try and steer us away from sobriety. We can only prevent that from happening if we can get a grip on our emotions. There will be times we will need to cry. There are other times we will need to vent or feel angry. We can have those feelings but we must be able to control them.
Seventh and probably one of the most important points is the power of forgiveness. It is one of the most defining ingredients God has given to us. We have to grasp onto it. We have to accept what has happened in our lives and thank our Higher Power for providing the direction to make a better and more positive life. Doing this we must be able to forgive and mean it. We must forgive ourselves for our negativity and addictions of the past. In saying this we must be able to allow forgiveness to openly flow in all directions. Once we can forgive then we will be able educate others and show them that it can be done. Then hopefully we can be forgiven by others who we may have ignored or abandoned to justify our negative and addictions.
Eight, failure. It is set in stone and it will happen. We can't be afraid of failure. It is another avenue in our lives that we must recognize and we need to move on from it. Once we recognize our failures then we can accept them. Failure doesn't always have to be negative. You are never a failure as long as you attempted. You are never a failure as long as you continue forward and into a positive atmosphere. You are never a failure if you learned from your mistakes and can get back up from the ground after you have failed. In fact in The Book of James it talks heavily about failure. I urge everyone to utilize this great book and learn from James. We will have continuous mountains, hills, and paths to climb over. Sometimes we may slip and fall down that hill, but as long as we get back up from the ground it will not destroy us or define us. The volcanic ashes of trials and temptations are learning guides for our future experiences. Accept failure!
Once we accept our past, the failures in life, and grasp onto forgiveness we will feel all of those positive emotions that one should feel. Once we recognize our addictions, come to terms with our feelings & emotions, identify those demons, and move from our past; we will be able to move forward in the most powerful direction with our loving Higher Power beside us. We cannot abandon what life means to us to justify other people or things first. In all absolute certainty we have to love ourselves first!
Copyright, Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction, Twenty-Eleven, Brian E. Splater
First and foremost is to identify what our addictions consist of and how we can start down the road of defeating them. We can make those addictions become a silent memory if we work hard to achieve a life in sobriety.
Second we must accept our past and realize it will always be there. It is our makeup of today but we don't have to let it define us. We don't have to allow our past to jeopardize our future.
Third, our Higher Power must be utilized. For some people that Higher Power is someone or even something. In treatment and sobriety, many people have come to the realization for the first time that there is someone or something that is in charge. This is OK. Jesus Christ, our Heavinly Father, is my Higher Power. I have absolutely no second guesses on that. The differences in peoples Higher Power will provide substance. The Higher Power will provide you with the guidance, strength, and hands when you need them the most.
Fourth is we MUST love ourselves first. At times our addictions have defined us. There are times we may have pushed our very deep personal values and morals to the side to satisfy our addictions. I know I have pushed my own morals and values off of the cliff's edge to satisfy my relationships. There is no other human being alive that is as important than you. You must become the center of your world. You must love and care for yourself first and foremost.
Fifth, the demons we have held deep within us will continue to root even deeper if we don't recognize those demons. It is our time to destroy them. Once we recognize those burning demons we will then be allowed to make our lives better from them. Do you allow your emotions to control the way you act? Do you resist God or your Higher Power's helping hands? Do you allow stress to eat you alive? If you lost everything in the past do you continually focus on what is fair instead of what is needed?
Sixth, our feelings can be fickle and misguide us. Like our negative behaviors and addictions, our own, personal feelings and emotions can destroy us from the inside out. There are times our feelings will try and overpower our direction in life and try and steer us away from sobriety. We can only prevent that from happening if we can get a grip on our emotions. There will be times we will need to cry. There are other times we will need to vent or feel angry. We can have those feelings but we must be able to control them.
Seventh and probably one of the most important points is the power of forgiveness. It is one of the most defining ingredients God has given to us. We have to grasp onto it. We have to accept what has happened in our lives and thank our Higher Power for providing the direction to make a better and more positive life. Doing this we must be able to forgive and mean it. We must forgive ourselves for our negativity and addictions of the past. In saying this we must be able to allow forgiveness to openly flow in all directions. Once we can forgive then we will be able educate others and show them that it can be done. Then hopefully we can be forgiven by others who we may have ignored or abandoned to justify our negative and addictions.
Eight, failure. It is set in stone and it will happen. We can't be afraid of failure. It is another avenue in our lives that we must recognize and we need to move on from it. Once we recognize our failures then we can accept them. Failure doesn't always have to be negative. You are never a failure as long as you attempted. You are never a failure as long as you continue forward and into a positive atmosphere. You are never a failure if you learned from your mistakes and can get back up from the ground after you have failed. In fact in The Book of James it talks heavily about failure. I urge everyone to utilize this great book and learn from James. We will have continuous mountains, hills, and paths to climb over. Sometimes we may slip and fall down that hill, but as long as we get back up from the ground it will not destroy us or define us. The volcanic ashes of trials and temptations are learning guides for our future experiences. Accept failure!
Once we accept our past, the failures in life, and grasp onto forgiveness we will feel all of those positive emotions that one should feel. Once we recognize our addictions, come to terms with our feelings & emotions, identify those demons, and move from our past; we will be able to move forward in the most powerful direction with our loving Higher Power beside us. We cannot abandon what life means to us to justify other people or things first. In all absolute certainty we have to love ourselves first!
Copyright, Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction, Twenty-Eleven, Brian E. Splater
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Receiving the copies of my book I ordered...first pictures!
I had seen the text copy of my novel and the text copy of my cover. I had an idea what it looked like and consisted of. A good friend of mine, Renee, was the first person to receive her copy. As you can tell by her picture, above, she seemed very excited to start reading the book.
I was very excited as I thumbed through the book on Thursday night. As I thumbed through the book, on occasion, I would stop on a page and briefly read what that page was about. From cover to cover I know what this book consists of. I mean I wrote it :-). Still, I had to stop myself on certain pages to "re-read" portions of it.
From pen and paper, typing the manuscript out, deleting parts, tossing out chapters, adding new chapters in, on and on it still looks a lot different when you have the book in your own hand after it has been published from that very first manuscript.
During this journey I have still learned in my life. As I wrote manuscript after manuscript I still questioned a lot of things and I still asked myself a lot of different things. Like before, there were questions I still couldn't give answers to.
I wanted every person who was involved in my life throughout this journey to be nameless and I wanted their identity sealed. Those who know me very well and those who have been beside me throughout this entire book will, obviously, recognize who I am talking about in different parts of the book. One person who will be able to do this is Renee. (pictured above)
Even with those who stood beside me throughout my addictions and experienced those times with my ex will still question a few instances that I speak of about in this book. Renee has already made that point: I didn't know that happened...
In Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction there will be times a reader will finish a sentence or chapter and come to the realization that there is definitely more to that part of the story. The reader would be correct. I had to wrestle with a lot of things as I wrote this book. There are many things I left out on purpose and decided not to go into full detail with on privacy matters.
E. Splater
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Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Behind "Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction"
"First, with addiction and leaving a negative relationship we must allow ourselves the opportunity to reach inside of us and find those raw emotions. We then must permit ourselves to shed those emotions. In our lives our addictions and relationships will define us and they will become our entire make up if we don’t grasp onto those raw emotions within us and identify that the roses are no longer blooming. Our life will continue being destroyed!
I wanted to bring in my very personal experiences into the book to provide examples on many different ways on how addiction can become a destroying factor in your life. Not only will addiction become this destroying factor but it will swallow you whole and start defining who you are to those that mean the most to you. Addiction and negative relationships will start a very brutal force. The brutal force is full of destruction and it will begin to destroy everything you had in your life.
How does one defeat addiction and negative relationships before they defeat us? I brought this into the book to help those who need to find the different avenues to take to begin a more positive direction in their life. Even when we are in recovery and starting that new and positive life there is always going to be the possibility of a relapse. I mention the factors that causes relapse and how we can prevent ourselves from bowing down to those factors.
The question then becomes, how can I go about creating this great new life in recovery? How can I achieve it? It is important to start tackling how to achieve this new and absolutely wonderful life that will never allow an addiction to conquer you again. I provide the ways of doing this. We must have the focus strictly on us through our recovery. If we veer from that focus then relapse is always ready to pounce on us.
I include a deep explanation about Eden, the house we found, how it started to destroy us, and how some people in the town bear clawed and held the town captive. I discuss the differences between “poor” and “rich”. These words mean so much more than just the amount of money you have or what you own. We can act very "poorly" in an addictive cycle and many people who are "rich" in money and monetary have the "poorest" of souls alive. Just because you have a million dollars in the bank does not mean you are more "rich" than someone with a $100,000. More than likely the million dollar person's attitude is much more "poorly" centered than anyone else's.
How about that man who has a million dollars in the bank? What if his negative paths in life and his very deep battles have been allowed to define him? Will society, his friends, his family, and those who mean the most to him really focus on his million dollars as "riches" or will they focus more on his "poor" decisions throughout his life? Anyone with a conscious, soul, and any respect will focus on the "poor" decisions. Those who are greedy...well, will probably focus on the money.
I discuss heavily the lies and negative patterns that I experienced in my life. I was not innocent. My relationship with my ex caused a heavy and destructive burden in addition to my addictions but I was not this angel who was a victim. We are not victims. It is our responsibility to lead a positive and healthy life. No one can force us to and no one can totally prevent us from doing so. It is our responsibility. We were put on this planet with the Lord’s Hands and blessings. We must do more than just exist. We must make our footprints all over this planet and we must allow the presence of God’s footprints to stand beside us.
It wasn’t until I put God back on the front burner that I started to realize He could and would save me. God doesn't abandon us. We abandon God. Finally, after I knew those doors of death were starting to open more and more for me; I cried out to God. I forced myself to go back to the time where I had those values and Christian beliefs. I forced myself to go back when I accepted and knew God’s existence. Once I did all that, I began a whole new way of thinking about my life, what I wanted out of my life, and how I had to get the hell out of the current situation I was in. Accepting God’s Guidance and Strength in Words from my Mouth is exactly the moment I focused on God again. It was the time in my life I accepted Him again.
When you write a nonfiction book about a particular disease you must include at least an introduction of that disease. I wanted Words from my Mouth to be the rawest. I wanted it to be about my own experiences dealing with addiction and negative relationships. I wanted it to be about the Works of God and how He can and will save you. I include a chapter about addiction, definitions of it, reasons for it, and how a person can become addicted. I also include a very personal chapter where I was always cautiously walking the fine line of a prescribed addiction, and I introduce readers to my neuropathy condition which, in my opinion and my doctors, was a cause from my relationship.
I didn't want to fill Words from my Mouth with statistics and raw data. I didn't want it to be filled with studies that were completed throughout addictions that people have or were once consumed by. There are plenty of wonderful books that already explain and go over the raw data, study findings, and statistics of addictions. Instead I wanted it to be about what the title simple states; sincere and truthful words from my mouth that explained a life of eight years that I gave my entirety to.
We need to realize that no person is ever immune to heartbreak. Every single relationship, no matter what that relationship is about, is a lesson in our lives. This lesson teaches us many things that we can use when we move on to the next relationship. We must grow as a person and learn from those past mistakes and not hold them captive. We must actually do the things we say instead of just saying them all the time. We must act on them. There happened to be a time I was the happiest man in the world. I was desperately in love as most people want to experience in their lifetime. I wanted my worth to be realized.
Addicts must get their heads put on straight and define their own priorities in life. My life was not anyone else's but my own. I could no longer allow someone and something else to rule over my life. I had to think long and hard about what I wanted from a relationship. It wasn't the lies and misconceptions that I already spent eight years dealing with. I didn't want to be kept in this never-ending emotional roller coaster ride any longer.
This was an insight into a very destructive pattern and disease that destroys millions of lives a year. It is the disease of addiction. It will always be a part of my story. I believe no one has the exact duplicate story throughout their life. My life, or what I call my great mystery, will always exist to see the spirals of time. I have finally allowed myself to no longer dedicate and be consumed by an addiction but instead leave room for surprises. I am leaving room for new adventures in my life. We must constantly look at our own Being and honor its greatness and difference from others
When we are through with this earth and all these problems we had in our lives we don’t have to come back. As long as we are here we have a job to do and a purpose to fulfill and that means dealing with the circumstances around us. We are put on the earth to participate in life. We have a beautiful mind, we have the ability to pray, we have the ability to change, we have the ability to accept, and we have choices. All things God created are constantly changing. This constant change causes our circumstances to change. Sometimes we say life is difficult. During these times we need to use our tools. Those are the tools of prayer. We are designed to change and live joyfully on this earth. The only requirement for living joyfully is to live according to the laws, principles, and values given to us by the Creator."
Words from my Mouth-Person Addiction, Twenty-Eleven
E. Splater
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